Fan The Flame

 With this blog the number one thing I wanted to do was be 100 percent honest. I will admit I have exaggerated in the past, the desire to have friends and loved ones proud of you is truly palpable, but honesty is much better than creating wild success stories dripping with hyperbole. I've been hanging out Santa Monica this place is gorgeous, everyone is so beautiful and happy. Even their problems seem to be not that bad, I overheard a girl who had " a gigantic argument" with her mother over what type of sunblock she should bring, damn what a travesty how will they ever get past such a colossal divide.. Lately, I've been so worried about how I can make living off of music and how I can get people to like me blah blah blah. I've forgotten that I do this because I enjoy it and I was reminded of this in the most surprising of ways. I saw a street drummer the other day I stopped by and dropped a dollar and complemented him because he was really good. Then just yesterday I'm sitting at a table at a Starbucks with only one other person who after awhile looks over and says "hey man how's it going"? At first I didn’t know who it was then I realized it was the street drummer whom I later found out is named Jay, or J maybe he's with the men in black. He began asking me what I was doing here and I told him (omitting some details)and we talked about music for a moment. He went on to tell me his story that he used to play drums for his church but then started "messin with drugs" as he put it and left Sacramento and had ended up here. His story was very sad I condensed it quite a bit, he went on forever but  what he said next really led me on an introspective journey. He just said he loved playing street drums, he was telling me he searches all around the city looking for new parts of his set to get a different sound. He pretty much reciting the words for a perfect old blues song. He told me how much he loved drumming for people and how much they loved him, it was almost as if he had no clue he was homeless and destitute.  So basically I thought to myself if he can enjoy drumming on old paint buckets with absolutely nothing, maybe I should calm down think less and just enjoy making music again. You never know where life's lessons will come from.  Oh and after all of that he was like "Yo man you got a couple dollars I could get", you just had to ruin it didn't you Jay. Anyways,since I've moved and have been living from my car, my productivity has gone through the roof, I've been up early, I mean I'm making the sun look bad, that also may be because I'm sleeping in a tiny little car and I get three to four hours of sleep a night BUT I feel great. And hey homeless people are still asking me for money so my appearance must not be too bad. For the first time in my music career I feel like I'm really out here fighting and grinding it out its beautiful. My negativity is at an all time low as well, in the past couple days I've only had one  negative thought. I saw a woman wearing a shirt that said "OCD obsessive Christmas disorder" and it really made me want to assault the whole cast of the Big Bang theory and make her watch.I digress,I am going to be employed soon which is great to have income again.Instead of signing a lease I've decided to live from my car a bit longer so I can afford the promotion I have in mind. I'm sure you all remember our talk about sacrifice. I've brought on a publicist and I'm looking into a couple more people I may bring on to the team. I have a rule that I will always follow, no one works harder on my project than me. I've been going to the library everyday, emailing blogs and radio shows, anyone I can get my hands on. I've made up a flyer for my EP "Schematics" with my website and I've been handing it out to people which is probably a waste of time but only one way to find out.. The outcome no longer matters, all that matters is intention and action. I've upgrading my blog as well, I'm a real boy now and it's a .com site. i'll be putting heavy promotion behind it, I just have to get the blogs and the people behind it. The march toward the EP starts now and I couldn't be more excited!