Sometimes you're the hammer,sometimes you're the nail.

The pendulum sways to and fro, the good and bad are tandem. This week I was turned down from a shit load of jobs, my bike tire was stolen ,I got a 64$ parking ticket and my radiator gave out which is costing 732 dollars to have fixed. The bike tire bummed me out more than just my tire missing, it was more the fact that someone would betray another human being for a bike tire which probably made them 10 dollars. I won't lie, after I saw it was stolen I rolled through the blocks and started shaking down homeless people looking for clues, I was kind of like an uncool version of Shaft.

These are for me a formidable stack of unfortunate monetary events. As my bank account dips lower I feel the pressure amounting not only on me but on my EP, I feel it when I sleep, I feel it when I eat, I feel it when I breathe, it is ever-present. This is good though it means my plan is working. Those of you who've read my previous posts know I've been sleeping in my car, so when pep boys took it in for the night I was legit homeless. I didn't feel safe sleeping so I did what I do best, I wandered and I pondered. I did catch about 20 minutes of sleep at a bus stop where I was subsequently woken up by a little raccoon that looked at me as if to say "Really man, a bus stop bench". You're right must keep walking.

I stumbled into a target and watched people scurry around to get last minute shopping done. My first thought was "man what a money mill Christmas is" and scoffed but I was just looking at it in the wrong way. I always like to introspectively analyze my train of thought which led me down an interesting road. Christmas isn't for the ones receiving the gifts its really for those giving. I found myself not wanting any thing I saw ( although I do have a weakness for watches) but wishing I had a more lucrative passion or line of work so that I could feel that sensation of giving someone a gift. I felt sort of selfish putting my dream before all of it and skipping buying presents and things like that because music ties up all of my money. I feel money isn't always necessary when giving presents though, So I will continue to do my best and attempt to bring the world back on my shoulders and set in at the feet of those I care about. Destroy poverty and the chains money has over us.

I spend such a large part of my life just worrying about money and lately it's been really getting to me and annoying me. Due to my car problems I'll probably spend my Christmas wandering around, studying and analyzing people and myself. I cannot wait for the holidays to be over simply because I want to get back to promoting the EP. Everyone is on break and for a crazy person like me it is not good. Once I announce the press release with Maelstrom then things will get rolling. The process I'm in now is a process I call void mailing, which has a response rate of maybe 4 percent. It's a way I fill my time when I don't know what else to do and I find people I think may dig my stuff whether it be blogs, radio, record labels anyone I think can help and I send them an unsolicited email. I call it void mailing because practically you are emailing into a gigantic void of messages that never even get opened but hey four percent is better than zero percent. This EP has to do well there is no other option.


Come January I have to step things up even more.I did book a radio interview which I'm very excited about. I have some grassroots ideas I will physically try here in LA and although my budget for digital marketing is shot I need to at least to give it some monetary backing. I do think it's time to sign a lease and for my car living days to be over. I miss my Korg SV-1 immensely, I want to play it so badly, light some incense ,drink some coffee and fill up some notebook pages .I just want to sacrifice for the EP and give it everything I've got so when I release it, even if no one buys it at least I can sleep at night knowing I tried.


I wish all of you a Merry Christmas and a happy new year. This was by far the hardest year of my life, Let's all of us make 2016 better than 2015, for me that will be very easy. Tell me your goals, dreams and ambitions for the coming year. don't be afraid to comment! Oh and remember it's your duty as a citizen of Earth to make sure Donald Trump doesn't get elected.