The Vice Grip Schematics

Eureka, jackpot,mission accomplished,pay-dirt, Hallelujah sweet mother of all things divine deliver me from white lines and grey skies. After 2,009 miles in under 48 hours I've done it! I made it! I accompl...... wait a second I have no where to live, no one here knows anything about my music, I have no income and I've eaten all of my granola bars. I have taken the problems I had when i left and moved them to another place and amplified them ten fold, why would anyone willingly do this? I believe the true potential of people is rarely seen, mainly because it surfaces when we are pressed and and challenged under the right circumstances. Comfort can be a disease it is important to test our boundaries. It is time for me to test my theory and put my money where my mouth is. Every situation is unique, every person has a different way of challenging themselves. You don't have to move anywhere or do anything too crazy, It's just a matter of looking inward and asking your self what you are capable of and how you can push yourself to attain your full potential. Anyway, enough preaching what the fuck do I do now? The only answer I can come up with is to go out there and fail a whole bunch of times. Try everything and once  all that fails that find more things to try. Of course I'll be practicing for my first gig coming up that I'm completely not ready for but Ill be ready when the time comes because I have no other choice. This loosely ties back into my point, I probably should have waited a little longer and gotten more comfortable with playing solo but fuck it when show time rolls around we'll see what I've got.Now I don't want to diminish the importance of being prepared, sometimes I'm unprepared and that's bad. It takes a bit of discretion and just judging the situation but if you believe in your heart of hearts that it's worth a shot then just do it.  What a month this has been, I'll never drive cross country like that again(unless I'm touring). All of those naive souls who go "I love road trips!" have obviously never made the trip I just did. I will say being here feels good, it just somehow feels right. I've never wanted to be successful more than I do now. I want this for myself and all of my hard work all these years, I want this to give my family something to be happy about for once, something to speak on positively, but most of all for my brother. He was always so supportive of my music and would always show me new music he's found and things I could try or ways I might improve.Me and my brother were always secretly comparing ourselves to one another as some brothers do.The foundation of our rivalry was build on respect so there was never animosity, we always wanted the best for each other.I'm not a religious man but in memory my brother is here with me. So although I have picked a particularly impossible mountain to climb I now have no choice but to rise to the occasion and become better. When I think of my brother and all of those who believe in me, I feel that beautiful empowering pressure that extracts dormant resolve residing inside of me. So .I'm not alone, all those who've never given up on me are right here with me,So let's go big brother we've got a lot of work to do.